.Monday, December 1, 2008 ' 10:56 PMY
30/11/08HAIS, why is about her again ! Sometime i really try to give up my life like more easy to forget her! Maybe will be childish or stupid to think the way ? If not i really dun noe how to make my life become colourful again like before i have with her! I dun blame her break with me, i really cant make myself to hate her anymore really cannot ! How i wish someone can wake me up this BAD DREAM i reall cant belived i really change to another person who i was not ! No one belived me, No one will will understand my feeling now, No one can ever know how much i loved her before . I will let this relationship last till i really cant see u in my mind ! Maybe it really take time but it wont be 1 yr, 2 yr , or more!!! Hais ! If i really can choose i wish god don't let us know other before! But anywhere i must thank her alot to change me till so grow up ! I really wish she found her happy life ! Teach me how to forget her, whenever i go i think of her, everything i do related to her whenever i closed my eyes i saw her! Even i when the date 30th reach make mi think of her again !!! SHIT ! Hais ! My brother take so long time still haven forget her ex! I dont know i can do it ma! hahas! Maybe this is what we call life ! hais! tc!
Maybe she wont ever see my blog but actually i make this blog also want to let her know, i can do it but i really dont dare use my another acc to create i dont know i so hate my that acc! hais! because she dun ever LOCK THE ANGEL , so i think i WONT KILL ANY EVIL anymore ! Hais! I really got alot of this to share with her but i think no more chance ! hais!
Even i sick, how xingku i am when i sleep she come to my dream i really can feel loved she give ! i really never ever dream that this come of dream will come to my dream! haha! So i will say this is not a normal dream ! hais! Even i so sick how xingku i am, i wake i still can smile, did anyone try this before, i tell my friend the say me is think of her too much, but i care swear and say i really didnt even think of her before i go sleep ! Hais! Somehow i still can get her image !
When the love start, i know is going to be hard to end !
If i really can choose i dont wanna to be a Guy u loved before !
If i can choose i dont want to promise you ! Because i wont neeed to keep the promise !
Maybe u think i didnt keep the promise but to me i will contiune my promise !
If really god want to make us together, i wish i can be i a smart guy not a ahbeng, so wont make u so paiseh when u going out with me !
At least my english my wearing everything can suit YOU, not always make u think i always still a ahbeng . Thankyou for company a ahbeng for so long !
If really can i wish we can drink the 忘情水 to forget each other ! Then maybe both of us wont be so xingku ba ! TC, my baby loves!
It start at 30/05/04, and it ends at 27/10/08
take care and byebye !!!
Y`True Loves
Y`no loves
